Raw Ascension

I pull out of the garage, and head up the road.  I pass by restaurants, businesses, stores, hustle and bustle.  People all over, doing all sorts of things in these places…but I’m driving through a ghost town.

Look on social media, see the current news and events, observe passionate reactions from all sides…yet it’s history repeating itself and people repeating their patterns.

Many people consider it depression when you stop doing things you used to love, enjoy, or have fun with.  Many think in order to reignite spark within themselves, they need to go back to what they use to love.  Maybe in some cases depression is at play in that…but another reality is that an ascension happens, and that shift often includes permanent residence outside the purview of what was once thought to be fulfilling.  From this perspective, it’s counterintuitive to go back to anything from before and expect to find fulfillment and growth.  It’s in the past because it served the purpose it needed to.  It actually starts to feel depressive in attempts to go back, signaling that there is no real return.

This ascension…it’s brought down to Earth.  Down to the soil of turmoil we walk each day.  Think about the mindscrew if you are one who looks at something like an ascension as “woo woo”, and then you yourself experience a shift in which you’re no longer living the same version of your life, but you watch others go about that life as if nothing changed.  I’m not someone who thinks of ascension as “woo woo” in any way, I’ve always been fascinated by any version of it…and I’ve been living the raw, authentic experience.

At times, I express these shifts when they happen.  I’m often met with people looking for lines to read between.  Tell someone of an average societal ilk that you aren’t driven by or towards money, and watch them surface agree…until they realize you were telling your truth.  Their mind doesn’t compute, and they rationalize all the reasons you need money and how limiting life is without it…as if I didn’t grow up poor, aim to make more money than my parents ever did so that I didn’t have to struggle the same ways, rise to earning six figures, while coming to the understanding immediately after passing parental maximum earnings that it ultimately meant nothing and brought forth no fulfillment in me.

Extrapolating on that…the understanding that this applied to virtually every external thing.  Materials, objects, titles, jobs, careers, and on.  Once surpassing a layer of chasing achievements and things happens, the viewpoint is never the same.  The things that don’t bring fulfillment, don’t bring excitement, or resonance.  The decompression of the societal package can seem like one long period of questioning your faculties…because the dropping of the masks or the wearing of the x-ray glasses, depending on your view, sheds light on what’s really going on, and you understand that these things no longer excite or grab you, and that they never actually did.  So much, and so many things, are not resonating, not exciting, not interesting, not lighting you up, that you think there’s a problem with you.  You have the phase where it feels like you are detoxing and trying to understand where “you” come into play, where “you” still exist.

When the majority of life, as society lives it, becomes a known-quantity in the direction of a “no”, where do you go?  What do you do?  Who do you be?  How do you be?  Therein lies the true opportunity.  I was already outside of the box in many ways, but when I chose to align with myself more than the desire for connection with those around me, the distractions of a societal life began to fade away.  I grew up with partying and coping parents, and friends later on where partying was the escape from life and where people “connected”, so I joined in and attempted to “fit in” for the sake of belonging and connection - except that it never worked.  As I got older, I began owning my alignment, despite the fallout in perception of what it might cost me in connection.  I don’t drink, smoke, or do drugs…so there’s no bars, clubs, wineries or parties.  I can’t be “met” in that frequency…I’m simply not there.  And I won’t be.  There is no going back.

Among the quieting of the noise when the shift happens and layers shed, despite the perceived loss of things…is also a much easier time of observing and identifying what actually resonates, excites, lights up.  I’m perpetually resonant with alignment to God.  Let me be clear, because in my eyes it’s another societal layer…God is not synonymous with religion.  Neither is Jesus, nor the Bible.  The Bible, and other sacred texts, can be read and contemplated from a purely spiritual and soulful perspective.  You know when the message hits home, despite all the spins and perceptions and even tainted and corrupted deliverers that exist…what is inside of you that connects to that higher power knows.  You also know when things are NOT delivered in an integrity that transcends the conjuring of the mind.

I spent time studying energy through Reiki starting in 2018, and practicing Reiki both in-person, and even more extensively remotely.  I learned to trust in what I felt energetically.  People validated what was sent and received, and that’s pleasing to the mind, but it’s really a matter of honoring what the soul already tapped into.  I experienced an authentic Sacral “Hell Yes” response with someone in the past year…the mind never even had a chance to contend it.  The way the energy generates without effort from the mind…I simply witnessed it happening inside of myself.  The observation of this was a shift.  There’s no way that I would want to begin any relationship without this as the foundation to build upon.  There’s no way I’d want to move in a direction for anything that wasn’t born from a divine activation of this nature.  It is the equivalent of catching my soul in the act of saying yes to something and flying towards it.  That is a baseline to work with, and something to align to in practice as a human being.

You don’t need to go back to things you loved as a child.  You can’t even if you tried. It will not be the same.  You’ve already made permanent shifts, even if you weren’t cognizant of them.  Some of us don’t even have things we loved as a child as a frame of reference, anyways.  Let go of what you are not…in the face of all that the world throws upon you…and begin to see where the spark actually comes from.

That’s why this is raw.  It cannot be contrived, manufactured, efforted, or manipulated.  It’s movement beyond your mind, a soul bare naked and being made love to by the energy of the universe.  One that touches you where no insecurity exists, and elevates you to conviction that because this place exists inside of you - this beyond - that it must exist out there in the world too…and so you observe beyond the perspective that you previously held.  This ascension happens.